All you need to know

Somehow, beyond this horizon of friendship disorder
I realized how tragedies were made and why the existed.
You were my favorite flavor, my addictive chat smiley,
Everything flowed from you so brilliantly.

I remember those late night in December when I pretended to hear you out.
When I stood on the borderline of a frantic crisis because you paid too much attention.
I hardly forgot to reply to most questions  when you accidentally had answered them for me.
No, I could never be mad at you for all the damage you caused- not exactly.

I was stuck in between telling and swearing not to,
But underneath all this charade I truly yearn to tell you, but I can’t, I won’t.
You will never know how much you meant to me
You will never know how much I hoped you’d be the one standing by me.

To you all there was only was this mediocre friendship and nothing more.
We both passed on same history pages , ignoring the simple things we had in common.
I wished on stars every night, hoping one of them would hit your head and make you react.
But I guess wishing doesn’t really complete it’s compromises on time.

So now you were stuck in the borderline of redemption,
By then the dripping tunnels had ceased crying toxic tears
And the sea had stopped roaring out your name.
I’m not mad at you, I just wish you cared enough to notice what I do for you.

Somewhere, beyond this cyanide sun, you will one day draw the heartstring
You pulled so strongly out of me and wished you had never ran that mile.
You will realize why tragedies exist and I’ll become your favorite sports car,
But by then my madness would become regret and my wishes would get driven away by the sea.