What’s happening to me?
What’s happening to me?
Is a question I’ve been asking myself…?
Why was I prescribed that extra tablet?
To make me feel like a shell!
I feel like I basically just exist day by day,
And it’s not right, none of it…
How can one tablet make that much difference?
It’s meant to help! Not make me feel someone else!
It’s scary… its dark… it’s really cold,
I can’t stick it no more…
I’ve tried to keep taking that one tablet,
No more though as I’m losing myself!
What am I meant to do?
Just give up on help?
Is this is?
Is this the way it’s going to be?
If so… such a god damn blow!
I want me back!
Somewhere deep inside me,
I’m crying out to be free!
Why it is… these other feelings are so overwhelming?
I’ve got to the stage,
I really do not know if I’m coming or going,
I really feel for my family…
My husband and daughters,
To be left with a mother and wife like me,
God, please, please I ask you why?
Namaste Selfexpressive.
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Thank you for sharing this beautiful and touching poem. I understand because I've said these things to myself as well. I understand the despair and have learned to take each moment, one at a time. To give eternal gratitude for every speck of light and always pray for guidance and help. I know that I cannot get through anything alone. Many blessings, sister. Fallingstar
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Fallingstar... thank you so much for commenting, I truly appreciate it... I think we have all said these things to ourselves that suffer this awful depression... please know if you want to talk anytime, I'm here okay? If I'm not please do leave me a message ... blessings, x
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Selfexpressive... You are so very welcome. Thank you again for sharing from your heart. It takes courage and a deep love to put it out there. Thank you for offering your friendship. I extend the same to you. Please write any time. I have been a memeber for about a year but don't check the site very often. I'll make a point to come on more often. If you write and don't hear back right away know that it's because I don't have access to internet or am just beginning to learn how to use the functions here on allpoetry. I actually just found this section with comments. And I am very grateful that I did. Many blessings to you - you are in my prayers. Fallingstarrr
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Fallingstar... thank you so much, thank you also for your friendship, I truly appreciate it... you are also in my prayers... blessings, x
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Hi. you're welcome and thank you too - it's amazing how connecting leaves an impression that lasts in our heart and mind - and every time you cross mine I send you love and good wishes. blessings again.
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the mind , is at times a terrible place to be stuck in . and many that never suffer from depression cannot understand such things. But try and be kind an gentle with yourself for you are loved. Brave write.
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Thanks Bob for your comments... I truly appreciate them... I agree with you... the mind is at times (to much of the time) a terrible place to be stuck in... also agree that unless you have or do suffer depression... you can't understand it... I put my hands up to that one as at one stage in my life I was one of those people that didn't understand... x
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