Why?

I think I should give up
I guess I raise my hopes up too high
My emotions can’t be contained in a cup
This happens when I’m not shy
Now, I think can’t stop myself and not cry
I really liked him
He’s made more than one tear splash on my poetry book
The pain looms
I’m scared to even catch him look
Love is one of my many dooms

Chorus:

// Please shake me from this nightmare
Please tell me everything will be all right
You don’t need him.
He’s just a dumb boy
You say those words
But I realize
You’re the ringer of focus in disguise
And with the pain inside
I just have to ask why//

End of Chorus

Could he ever be so oblivious?
I’ve wanted to run and cry but I can’t show pain
My face twists into a weird mischievous
I know once or twice I’ve looked insane
But all that is because I have a lot of shame
It’s never been some kind of game
He hasn’t give me a sign
That mad valentines dance was a flight situation
I know I’m out of line
The police have given me at least a dozen citations
How long will this nightmare go on?

// //

Is this a plea for information?
Or a twisted love story gone wrong?
I don’t live in a loving nation
This isn’t a happy song
My heart doesn’t want you to be another laceration
// //