Wednesday, August 6, 2008 at 7:49pm
I dont even know how to put it to words.
Everything sounds too cliche', too broad, and too sentimental.
I'm starting to bite my nails, again.
Everything is falling into place, everything is fine.
I've accomplished my goals for the summer, I've set my new goals for the year.
I have a nice little family that's a big support.
I have amazing friends who mean the world to me and care incredibly.
I even have that special someone; a potential love.
Yet I still have this gut feeling.
I still have this face in my mind.
You're the main event of my thoughts as of late.
You're what's been running circles in my cluttered mind.
We're not even right together.
We're not even right for each other.
Then why are you still making my heart skip a beat...?
Is it the fact that I was once in love..?
Possibly still am, or at least struggling to get over the fact.
Is it the fact that you were my first love..?
I think.
My first infatuation of it's kind; my first love song written in memory of you..?
Maybe I'm only kidding myself.
I miss the old everything.
sure, I'm happy now.
Things are great.
Things are fine.
I know you weren't kidding me.
You may even miss the old times we shared.
I want you to be happy now; but my heart is still heavy when I hear of you two together. When I see you two together. I care too much. I don't want you to be hurt ever ever again.
Though I, myself, hurt you..over and over again.
I'm sorry.
Sincerely sorry.
I still love you.
I just hope I'm still with you, even in the back of your mind, like you are in mine.
Author notes
Ugh, love.
Every poem I write - just about - always relates back to love.
Also, once I wrote this and got it out, I was fine with everything that was going on. I'm still amazing friends with this person and the person they love. I love them dearly and am very happy to see them happy together. They mean so much to me. <3
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husband
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This isn't about Chester, is it? Husband?
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Love is the consuming essense of life, of course yu would always write about it!!! Beautiful, very narrative-like, and great attention to detail yet I also like how you leave much to the readers own interpretation.
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This is so sweet. You aren't with him anymore, and he has a new love, but you still hold fond memories of the times the two of you had. It is nice that someone so young can have this kind of mind in today's world. Keep on smiling girl, and always be happy, no matter were you are, what you are doing, or whomever you are with. This is what the whole world shoud be like. Thank you for sharing.
Love & hugs,
Barbara
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Thank you so much,
I really appreciate everything you said
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