merry go round

you yell, i scream
you accuse, i'm so abused
and, yet i keep on coming back
like a lovesick fool
you hit, i hit back
your temper fires and mine just won't stay in control long enough to listen

baby, what are we doing?
are we playing games?
i'm not perfect
you are so broken
i can't get you to trust me at all...
when you say you love me
and when i'm too angry
i just can't say it back
cause it taste so bitter
and i hate that

why do we play tug of war?
i don't want you to be my enemy
i am falling
just like you
and failing at this...
what are we doing?

we say we love each other
but we can't get off square one
we can't get off
we say we are going to try
and then tomorrow night
we're back at the fussing, the accusing, and hating
it's so sinful and evil
we can't even bow down to each other
and i'm too stubborn
just like you


you called me like a million times
the pissed off part of me is like
'why don't you get a fucking life!!! and stop bothering me!!'
and then i remember all those times you held me
and kissed me and would not let go
now baby, i know that's love

but when you cut me down
it hurts
and i can't get you to believe in yourself
you can be so much
don't you know that?
i'm sorry i'm not affectionate
sometimes, it's just weird for me
to get that close
and hold on
in the back of my mind i feel like i'm losing it

what are we doing?
what are we doing?
all we can do is try we say
but we fail at that always

always...always...always

i hate playing merry go round
i don't won't to be children
or act like we live in a circus and we are the star clowns
i don't want to get on this merry go round anymore
i'm sick of being dizzy
sick of not thinking straight
tired of being mad all the time
hate to taste my tears all the time....
i hate being on this merry go round
cause all i see is you
and it makes me angry
angry

i want to jump off
and just look at the sky
just look at the sky
and sigh
and know that everything will be all right....
when you come lay down next to me
and we're hand in hand
and i know you won't hurt me...
when i know that you won't

maybe it all will really be okay...

because i really do love you.