It Dosn't End

I hang up the phone
sob's harsh and torn from my chest
you always say the same things
which produce again
the same arguments in my mind
and i cry the same tears
as i did a year ago
but i call you again
as each day goes by
hoping that this time my heart
will not be torn asunder

Memories of lost love
and seeing your back walking away
sinks my heart through my stomach
and leads my knees to the floor
i cant find the person i once was
the strong one who fought against love
how was it you pulled me in so close
as to leave me crying like this
distraught and in despair

And now as i come to the end of the day
still i lay down in my bed
wrapped in the blanket you bought me
and wearing your shirt from long ago
i take a deep breath
and draw what you were into me
and it's then that i know
that i will never give you up
nor will i let go of this love

so i wake in the morn
fresh from seeing your face in my dreams
and i stumble to car and drive
down roads dusty and dirty
to the same place as yesterday
i walk among tree's remembering your love
pulling out my phone i dial in yours
and wait for the ringing to end
as the message ends i begin to cry again
and sink to my knee's on the grass
resting my back against cold marble
that will never hold your warmth

the phone rings again
and i trail my hand over the stone
a name and date carved so carefully
the phone rings and clicks
tears flood my eyes
as i hear your voice again
these are the last words i will hear you say
i dont bother leaving a message you can not hear
i lay a rose on the grass
and i walk away from you
for the dead cannot soothe my broken heart.