Two years of lies.

Lay awake night after night-
terrified to have lost you and our light.

It started off good and ended in pain-
I'm told these experiences will come to my gain.

CLouds have taken over my sunny day-
As I feel like a puppet in this horrifying play.

I love you
I hate you
This hasn't changed.
I just went so lonely, everything went strange.

My mind is racing
My thoughts unclear
Still remember those letters entitled "My Dear".

Things would be good
and oh boy, things would be bad . . .

But what you did took it up a step
my tears shed on a whole new level.

Cut me deep and left me to weep
with your broken promises, & no strength to keep.

I trusted you with all of me
For the whole world to see.
Never saw it coming,
never expected you to do that.

Slandered my name and played the "blame game"
And I ask myself, what all did you gain?

It was my wake up call
got my memories and lesson learned.

Hold your own and just continue to shout
My trust is now hard for me to give out

I try to hold back-
Think of all the qualities you lack.

And as my favorite quote states "People change, things go wrong - just remember life goes on".