I lost myself;
she told me I was beautiful.
and behind my back when she thought
I was asleep she called up her friends
and told them how I wasn’t going to
amount to anything in the world,
I had no ambition. I was lazy.
I feel asleep with those words
playing in my head. over and over,
getting louder and angrier by the second.
he never said anything at all,
except for those moments when
I was especially irritating. by then
I had no name. I was just ‘plain stupid’,
‘worthless’ or ‘fucking ungrateful bitch’
when it really came down to it.
they both yelled, and screamed at each other.
he said she was fucking stupid and lazy more
times than I can count. she said he was never
home and cried and cried. I do believe that she
loves him, even with all his faults. he hated her,
and me. they both hated me. if I would ever draw
a Venn diagram of their mutual dislikes I would be
at the top of the list.
I wish,
and wish,
and wish,
I wish with all my heart
that time could go backwards
and just disappear.
I need some time to piece myself together.
Author notes
15.Sew Yourself Together
I really do need to get it together, or someday soon I'll breakdown and die.
hopefully things will get better.\
.. and sorry about the profanity.
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-I had no ambition. I was lazy.
I feel asleep with those words
playing in my head. over and over,
getting louder and angrier by the second.
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I miss your poetry; you're amazing, and your writing is incredible. I loved the vent in this piece; I've felt this way sooo many times, and you portrayed the feeling so flawlessly love. Incredible. I miss your writing♥
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"I wish,
and wish,
and wish,
I wish with all my heart
that time could go backwards
and just disappear." - My God, this is beautiful. I can relate to this so much.
I feel this same way right this second.
Wonderful, painful read. -
I wish,
and wish,
and wish,
I wish with all my heart
that time could go backwards
and just disappear
I could really relate too those lines. Sometimes I really wish I could just sink into the wall and become a wallflower.
great write
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I love how blunt and straightforward this is.
it blew my mind how you could write about it so well.
if I tried to write about any of my situations literally, I would probably break down.
that's why I bury everything in stupid metaphors.
this was beautiful.
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cant w8 till its done
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well it's done now
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