I Love You This Much

It had been a horrible day for me.
You had told me, once before
That you loved me so, it was meant to be...
but you stand before me, here today, telling me that you want no more.

I can see that my best friend, suits you
as she hangs on your arm, like I used to do.
When I told you, I'd die for you I told you what's true.
I hope the bullet that was fired, didn't hurt you too.

After all, I was your shield and your love,
the one who had told you that she's yours for the taking,
the girl who promised you a vow from above,
that even through the smile I'd never be faking.

This pain in my chest isn't so bad,
not compared to what you both did.
I wish that my smile didn't make you so sad,
but the pain is so harsh, I will not kid.

Please, don't look at me with those pitiful eyes
be happy with her, I wish you the best.
I won't be happy either, if everyone cries.
I'm sorry, my love, but I feel I must rest.

If anyone asks, you can say that I died daringly.
Please, my love, tell everyone that I love them so.
And tell them how I left you both so sparingly.
Forget about me, or you'll have reached a new low.

After all, you told me that I was less than dirt.
You told me you hate me, and that I was so gross.
You will probably never know, how much that it hurt.
But now when I am dying, you're holding me close.

Now you know, that I meant what I said.
"I'll love you forever, until the day I am dead,"