past and present combined

my eyes are full
of tears for you
why cant you understand
what you have put me through
time and time again
last time you left me on the floor
lying there bloodsoaked to the core
i was bleeding both inside and out
now you've left me
so fast
i cannot see straight
what you do to me
is scaring me once more
most of all
cause i have no control anymore
you have abondoned me
like an unfashionable toy
i guess i always was your
unfashionable friend
you could control me
in a blink of an eye
all you have to say is
you are mine
it scares me to know
terrifies me to say
that you could control me
in every single way
you scare me so bad
i didnt relize how insane this whole thing was
that i would let you hurt me so bad
and then keep hanging out
i cant do this anymore
im sorry
honestly heartbroken
over this
if you hurt me anymore
i wont be around you anymore
this is breaking me
my heart beats unevenly
at the thought of losing the one i truly love
the one i want to spend my life with
your gone
you have one more chance
please dont ruin this for me
for us
but once again
its your choice