The Last Poem I'll Ever Wast On U

I'll never feel the same again
You took away all I had
You lied to me and played me for a fool
But I woke up and saw you for what you are
And I refuse to let myself be sad anymore
I refuse to love you like I used to
You made me feel so empty
But I kept forgiving you
Each time it would get worse
No more listening to you say I love you
That won't get me this time
That can't save you anymore
You'll never know the way your words haunt me
I wasted too much energy on you
You'll never understand the abuse you let out
Just because you didn't touch me doesn't mean you didn't hurt me
How many nights did I sit up crying because of you?
How many times did you lash out at me for no reason?
How many times did you say something harmful to me?
Do you think of those things?
You know I'd never hurt you but yet you punished me
It's all about control to you
But you can't control me I thought you knew that
You can't change who I am
My love wasn't enough for you
Now you'll hate me for living without you
Hate me if it feels good but I won't back down
I found my way out and you'll never hurt me again
I'll go on breathing every day
I'll make my own way without you
I won't lose myself.....not today
I can't keep trying to save you from yourself
You are your own worst enemy and I was in the cross fire
Any sudden movement of my heart and I was stabbed
I have nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
Now I wimper in my sleep like a little child
At any moment I feel like the rug could be pulled out from under me
All because of you
But I won't let you effect me this way anymore
I'll run from you
I'll hide from you
I don't love you like I used to
You are dead to me