I loved you, they claimed to
I stood there to save you.
You ran in fear, you disappeared.
How could you?
I look at them and wonder,
How they can act so innocent.
I know their lies and now the truth,
They broke you open, shattered you!
I'm sorry, I couldn't see.
I should have told somebody.
You trusted me I shouldn't have stayed silent.
Instead of telling others I let you fall that night.
If I would have known,
They pushed you so far,
That you didn't tell another.
"I'm trusting you, I'll handle this,
In my own ways, okay? This is our secret"
I had to keep my word..
I shouldn't have I know it now
I shouldn't have, I shouldn't have...
They shouldn't have touched you.
The way that they did.
Then forcing you to go back?
Thats just no way to live!
I'm sorry, you took your life.
Why didn't you ask for others help?
Why did you let them rule your fate.
It's not fair,
I'm grieving.
Their claiming regret, denying all evidence.
I found the note, I saw the scars,
The bullet wound..
It got too far.
I love you, I miss you.
Why didn't I tell somebody else!?!
I should have.
They shouldn't have..
How could you have?
I'm sorry Eric.
I'm here now.
Author notes
My friend eric told me about what his family was doing to him, his dad hated him.. he tried to leave and had no place else to go his mother denied him long ago, his aunt didnt want him and his only choice was to be home again then the first girl he loved broke up with him...so... he shot himself.
He just didn't wanna go to a home.
<3 <3 <3 RIP
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thank you all very much. getting it out made me realize the truth and I know it was hard but hes not suffering anymore. Thank you very much, im glad you enjoyed it. <3 rip eric
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When I read this it was almost like reading my story...I was raped by who I thought was my best friend...he got my drunk, until I passed out and took advantage of me...I did come close to taking my own life, but I chose to fight on and survive it, and it takes one day at a time, but I have so far...Thanks for sharing this...
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Damn..... I'm so sorry. It isn't easy to make me cry when I am stoned, but this had just the right amount of pain to break my fucking heart. Please don't blame yourself for what happened. You can never blame yourself when something like this happens.
I'm here for you if you ever need to talk.
-David
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This piece brought tears to my eyes,it was so painful to read...and so gut wrenchingly sad...he should never have had to ever go through that, and you cannot blame yourself and I know part of you does because you feel like you should have told someone,but you were being a good friend by keeping the secret in a way too, I don't imagine he had a lot of people in his life he could trust with anything,but you kept his secret for him even though it killed you inside to do it...It is sad that he went through that so much, the ones who were supposed to be his family and love him betrayed him in the most horrific way,and it is even more tragic he felt as if the only way to escape was to take his own life...I hope his father and uncle paid for what they caused him...and I am glad you told Eric's secret in this amazing written piece now,you've given him a voice...His story yet absolutely tragic might help someone...it's what he would have wanted, it's too bad he didn't know how to help himself,I feel for him...I really do,I am a survivor myself and I almost took it all away as well...I know you must hurt more than anything and I bet the fact you knew what he was going through and couldn't help him more than you already were makes you feel guilty hun,but don't, You loved Eric and cared about him,that shows in this,You were his friend...He was lucky to have you and you him...i bet if he was here he'd smile and tell you he was okay and how much he loved you and was so proud of you...Take comfort in knowing Eric will never have to go through that ever again...I am so sorry that you lost a dear friend, but thanks for sharing his story...it was one of the most touching pieces I have ever read, I've never felt more emotions reading a poem in my life...
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