Don't press quit

As the scratches become more visible,
The adrenaline runs through me like no other force ever before,
The pain is unbearable but In my mind it isn't there any more 

With each laceration to my arm,
I grit my teeth through the pain,
My life is not looking bright,
Got college in about two hours that's a place,
I don't want to go to ever again,

This point It feels like I am strapped into one hell of a roller coaster of death,
I am about to lose control,
My arms swells up red and sore as I play Russian roulette with my soul,

Until I bottle out and thoughts of my family and friends run through my head,
I couldn't do that to my family because It would kill my brother sister,
If they knew I was dead,
With eyes drenched tears I feel so guilt ridden,
And scream Matthew whats going through your head,

In my mind twenty four seven,
I try to stay focused to this pen this page,
As Well as my family that's the main incentive to stay alive,
Life is taking quite a bumpy ride,
Hear me when I say this I am determined to survive.

My minds running in circles I cant take know more of this shit,
Self harming is no option at all,
When you consider it think of it a booby trap,
A big red button to the thing you only get one chance at so don't you ever press quit,