darkness

i walk in the darkness
my hand groping the wall
i have my own light
but it still swirls around me
i see the light bounce off their eyes
and the rustle of their feet
but they stay just out of reach
never fully showing themselves
i see a flash of red
and my light flares
i know what it means
but it will never happen it seems
i see white
my light flickers
before it goes out
i sigh and call the name