The bruised clouds circled,
Animals snarling, hissing vertical fur,
The deer and bull ate one another
The infertile sand birthed the Onyx
Bare and filthy, deserted and windswept
Frosty bristles came from the dusk
Cascading above rooftops
Gravely voices sprung from exposed specters
Their freezing ebony choked the air
And rumbling mists battered the earth dry
The dear and bull ate one another
Author notes
Hyacinth bulbs are poisonous.
I have this bad feeling. It's the same one I got before I was supposed to leave for college. As the first day of school began to approach, I felt like maybe I wasn't going to go, like I was living in some dream world. Then it happened and I couldn't go. I feel the same way about new york. I feel like I'm not going to be able to go. I even talked to my friend who I’m supposed to go with about how I feel and she agrees. I'm tired of being let down.
I feel stuck, trenched, and all this dirty soil is being piled on top of me. I feel sick and nervous and desperate and like I'm dying. I'm so vulnerable and diseased, so fucking lifeless.
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Oh, I hope you get to New York! This is great, love this imagery and the hyacinth bulbs thing is true. You can't even touch the crocuses over here because the poison will get on your fingers - the children are taught that - no one ever told me that when I was growing up but crocuses weren't as prevalent as they are here, where they grow on the lawns. This write makes me think of werewolfs. I like the mix of botanical and animal elements here. Hope everything works out with your plans.
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Aaaaaaaaaaw~
Oh My Word~ Did You have to fly to go to college?
While reading Your words- I kept thinking of 9-11 for some reason- it is like that Final Destination type feeling- all the thoughts pile on at once~
the what if's etc
but I always say: listen to Your gut- if You don't feel right about doing something or going somewhere- there is a reason for it-
It may not sit well at first- or be rational-
but once the dust settles- the fine china still sits on the holder- unscathed
This is one Powerful piece~ like all Your verses
Message intertwined- certainly can be felt
You are a Gift- that deserves to be Happy
Thank You for sharing Your Heart and Voice~
Many blessings to You in all You do Sweet Soul
Best wishes Beautiful
with much love & light~ Desire~*~
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I was just running on a bad feeling. before I was supposed to leave for college, I had this feeling that told me I wasn't going to go and I wasn't able to due to lack of fundings and my rents went through some financial problems. I felt the same way about new york and I recently found out I wouldn't be able to go. it's just sucky timing for everything I guess :/
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Damn there is a depth to this piece I've only had the pleasure of reading a scant amount of times, your metaphor is powerful and your imagery just blows me away.
No matter what happens, go anyway, even if it's not for as long as you wanted to from the beginning. You owe it to yourself to at least enjoy a brief respite if not a longer one.
I hope it goes well for you
~send you a basket of sunshine to brighten your day~
Sandi
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im not going to say 'i know how you feel' because thats just fucking insincere, but i will tell you that sometimes we subconsiously talk ourselves out of living and except a fate that isnt even really for us. what im really trying to say is dont cheat yourself, you have every right to feel a certain way i dont blame you but you also have every right to deserve a wonderful life full of fun and quirkyness just like yourself! you are bigger than life and your spirit is a being caged, open it up and let her fly for awhile k? love you hun and this was a very moving piece as well <3
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o shit i feel the same way....
what the fuck is all this?
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Oh... and I'm really sorry about the New York thing...
I know exactly how that is, loves...
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Well jesus woman, for someone who's lifeless you can still write pretty goddamned well. [Stupid mo'fucker with your abilities...]
This is true OhEmGee Wow. Not just any wow, but the one where you get knocked out, read it again upon coming to, go into shock, faint again, read it in the safety of the hospital, take some morphine to calm down, and then finally have the ability to comment. xD
Holy god damned shit.
Yes, I'm aware that that's not a proper curse but whatever.
I'm completely blown away. I don't have anything to say that will make sense so take my applause and let me die in the presence of something amazing.
- Allura
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Good God this was a powerful piece. I got chills from reading it. You used some of my favorite descriptions too ... I love the last line though. It was so haunting and melancholic.
As for your feeling try not to take it to heart. Just think of New York, city life and boning James Franco
Your not lifeless. You just need love
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sad, sucky, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreaat.
firrst two go for what your going through, third is for your psycho fantastic l33t writing skills.
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