Scared of the reflection everytime I look into the mirror
Hating the person that I have become to be
Aching inside at what I can and cannot see
Trembling at the thought of food and needing the knife to disperse the pain
Tripping over from the lack of energy that I have left inside to fight
Every thought of how to manage my next lie
Requiring to weigh on the scales at-
Every opportunity
Down one more size and still not convinced!
Crippling in guilt as I smooth the blade across my skin
Out of my depth and enjoying the rush as the blood flows from within
Now my mind is at ease and I can feel it is better than a scold from a flame
Forlorn and desperately requiring physical pain to replace the emotional shame
In good time the need pleads at me again
Desiring the shine and it's here where the cycle begins
Evolved into three addictions now of self induced
Nausea (binging and purging!)
Cutting (scratching, burning, pulling hair, bruising and biting anywhere)
Eating nothing!
(what will be the next addiction?)
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The next addiction? Acrostics!!
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this poem was awesomeness lol. i really loved reading this and loved the acrostic i don't see many of those on here and was glad to see it...good luck
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wow this is amazing! good job n i loved the acrostic.
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cool Im glad you liked it, I must say I was quite pleased with this one compared to other that Ive written....hehe thankyou so much for reading and taking the time to comment xx
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ur welcome
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Awesome
This is a great but painful poem. I can tell you I have been through something very similar to what you are talking about. I am much better now, but I still struggle w/ binging and purging, and its hard to resist the temptation to do it. And also the urge to cut. I never thought I would get better, but I havent cut since August, which is a small step. but for me... well Im proud of myself. And you can get better as well :-) Good Luck. - Em
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