Ok now... my dear
The cycle embarks again
I can slowly feel it forming within
My black hole is multiplying, pushing me by maximising!
It wants to suck me up; hide me from the daylight
Migraine's started by those stupid voices
Split personality; I should be used to now
Changes in my moods rapidly; that I can no longer see
I blame it on being an insomniac when you confront me
Denying the reality and refusing to weep
As I may crack with my innermost rage
Aware now..my dear
That I am on the verge to fail
Mum is on my back; she can sense it
"We are going to the doctors" she wails
Not listening to me....no never does she??
I am now feeling frustrated
I know she cares
To argue I shouldn't really dare
I know she is right deep down inside
The anguish eats me up
My anxiety continues to collide
Agreeing now...my dear
Being in full time employment
I feel in control of my own life
Shame it's not enjoyment
I refuse to face my demons
Being on meds should be enough
Obviously Not!
Must be Time to put the dose up
Out of the mental health services
I still refuse to meet those demons
Scared of being referred again!
You win now...my dear
What will be the price I have to pay
I do not want to be judged
Losing the capability to work
It could be the end for me
Not wanting to admit it
But my mind is going berserk
I scream and snap at you
My sarcastic sense of humour insults you too deep
Work, support a friend who is in need....
See friends that I keep a secret; needing to bleed
In the end feeling defeat!
Author notes
option number 4-SLOTH (exactly how things are at the moment)
In a list
A contest entry
- Seven Sins. by Walking Oxymoron.
700 points, ended November 24, 2008, 15 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - BEST prewrites; anything goes! by perfectsunset.
550 points, ended April 5, 52 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
did a few changes to make it more natural to me..did it work?
Comments
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This was great.
A most wonderfully
penned piece and
pleasure to read.
Thanks for entering & best of luck
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A journey into the mind of someone with a problem opens up experiences never before felt by the reader and instills a fear that it could happen to anyone ... chilling thought. You got your message across and that is the main objective. Keep it up and try for some more positive thoughts ... big battle you have but you can still win if you want to.
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I feel in control; shame it's not enjoyment.
I like this line...It's not one of your best, but the idea is there.
It's a good write, but yeah, I know you can do better...
You have some good lines... it's just the rhyning seems a little too forced. -
Dear sloth
It's not the split or the cut within. It's the promiss of tomarrow. -c
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