No Shame In It

I loved you so deeply
So why did you leave me?

You said I was your world
So why forsake those words?

I thought you were the one
So why did you run?

You once made me smile
So why did I cry all the while?

I gave you all my soul
So why did it feel stolen?

Your friends loved me
Told you, you should marry me

So why am I left now
This aching pain in my heart

My head telling me you're all wrong
My ears keep hearing this sad song

Why is your voice on repeat in my head
Telling me those sweet nothings?

Those times in your bed
Where you would tell me
I was beautiful
Both inside and out

Where did those days go?
You said it was me
That I was our undoing

Is that why I'm left here now
Full of all those regrets
And all those unpaid debts

Why does my breath still catch
Everytime you hurt me?

Why does it feel like my heart lies
In the palms of your hard hands?

Why does it feel like you are squeezing
The life force out of me?

You said you loved me
You would protect me
You would kill anyone
Who laid a hand on me

Why did you lay your hands
On my face
And cup my chin
And smile into my eyes
When those were all lies?

How could you break the heart
Of a sweet, innocent girl
And say nothing at all?
You tore me apart

You killed me
But I am still living
With all of these wounds
And sapped of all of my strength

How does it feel now?
Knowing that you had me

You did it, you won
And I lost a losing battle
I guess there's no shame in it

You will never know how much I cared
And I will never believe you hurt me
All on purpose

I guess thats why they call it love
You taught me how it goes
And of course, how it ends

And here we are
Mere acquaintances

Holding onto days passed
Of being in each other's arms

Why am I still alive
When it feels like I'm dead inside?

Why did I get hurt?
Why treat me like dirt?

I take solace in karma
It makes me feel a lot calmer

You hurt me so bad
You fucked me up so good

You did it, you won
And I simply
Lost a losing battle

And there's no shame in it.