Messed up

I let flow as if I had ryhme with out a care
and everything im thinking is like a dare
from which I cant see life as being any fair
but I live my life in dispair
Which left me in a stare

Knowing I messed up in many ways
and it was all just the newest of craves
I should of did it
but its sad when all of it happened
I was lit

Im learning lifes little lessons in life
and sometimes I feel like Im getting stabbed by a knife
but I take the pain and try and absorb it with the little bit of
happiness that do have Ill treasure every happy moment I can
because leaving me here without you is eating me up inside
I guess its just the thought of youve been around for as
long as I can remember but I will still love you but from a far