It's still about him

I'm sat around,
Lying to myself.
Telling myself that with him,
I wasn't wasting my breath.

I know deep inside,
He was to good for me.
Though I can't let go.
I know that's how it should be.

Around him I feel guilty.
For leading him astray,

I thought I did the right thing.

But we both feel worse this way.

I don't know what he saw in me.

I was useless, I cheated, I lied.

But in the end he loved me,

And I've foolishly left him behind.

A contest entry

Im Here If You Need Someone That Cares by storiesuntold. 925 points, ended November 28, 2008, 28 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest

I've been writing allot of things like this since i left my ex... hope you liked. xox

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dustytiger
November 19, 2008

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wow that is so sad, it's a fantastic poem, full of emotion, you can tell you want to change how things happened, i really liked it, best of luck in the contest
LeaPan
November 14, 2008
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wow
something like this just happened to me!
storiesuntold
November 14, 2008
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I felt your pain here
Yes we all have some form of pain from our actions over the years but as we learn from our actions we must move on and find this life we so want and need .Never give up my friend and dont beet up on yourself for we are all learning what it is to live and often its not easy when we are given the reigns and are learning to fly on our own .But we shall all find our way
storiesuntold
November 14, 2008

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I hear you honey
You know in life often when others dont listen and done act like they understand we do things that in time we regret .But we are human and we will do things like this unless the men in our life starts to truly listen and pay atention to us . It is a lonely place to be I have been there nmany times and often thought why am I here if he doesnt care .
I have always given it time and we have had some real mountains to climb over in our marriage but we were never devorced but the past we have left behind .Now in the feelings you say you still have listen to me honey . Life deals the cards sometimes and we follow our feelings but often when we look back we feel sorrow for doing what we have done . No one in this world is a true saint but maybe a few and we have to just look forward and make each day from this point on the best that we can make it to be . To waste precious moments in the hourglass of time in our life we will never see the joys before us for we refuse to move on . From this day forward we must all think before we act and know you will never leave regrets in your wake again for regrets become our past that trails behind us . Cover your trail of all tomorrows with good deeds good thoughts and meet new people that has joy of life and live honey live this life so given to you .
Go and talk to him spill out your heart and tell him
what you were feeling at the time and he wasnt telling you or showing you his love its never too late honey to tell someone you love the truth . Start out being the best of friends if this will help and prove to him the love was there always only you needed to know of his as well . I so hope you can leave your past behind you to never speak of it again and find this love of your life in time dont be in a rush but keep honest and let not one day go to waste .Talk to me anytime honey I will answer