I'm Not Strong.

Standing alone in this pouring drought,
I'm lost among the instantaneous changes in this life.
One day you are here by my side,
And suddenly the next, I've lost all my support.

It's hard to look into your eyes
And not see past the door
That you've closed in my face.
You gave me this key,
To unlock your door
And let your thoughts and troubles
Just fall out into the night's sky.

I'm not strong enough to carry this key anymore...

I can feel the smooth-rough teeth of the key,
Biting into my mind with thoughts of ambivalence.
This silver-polished metal used to be everything,
Everything I ever wanted..
Everything I [thought I] needed..
Now it's just a carelessly placed object,
That should have never have been mine..

Apparently I'm not strong enough to carry this key...

I'm not the person you wanted,
I'm not the person you needed..
I convinced my foolish heart that you cared,
Decieved it into believing you wanted me there.
To my demise,
You tortured my heart with a thiefish grin on your face.
I know you loved every minute of it.

I'm not strong enough to withstand the torture anymore...

Breaking the vices of pain and misery
With visions of wisdom and clarity,
Looking past the clouds of smoke
That you unforgivingly blew in my face.
And with a plastic smile splashed on my face,
I can finally get up and move on.

 
                      I know I'm not strong,
        But I know I'm strong enough
    To forget you.