It's funny how the world works
you can grow up watching your mother
being abused every single day and think
I will never let a man lay his hands on me like that.
Then one day you grow up
to find that you are in the exact
same position as she was, being hit
every single day and she won't help you
until as she says you get your gut full.
That day finally comes
when you are knocked unconcious in a parking lot
and when you come too, he and your
six month old son are no where around.
You walk home to find
he is sitting in a chair holding a loaded shotgun
and your baby is standing at his knees.
that's when it's time to get the fuck out.
what a vicious cycle.
It's funny how the world works
when your father couldn't give
a shit about you after you are born
your parents get divorced and you
never hear from the son of a bitch again.
Until you turn eighteen
and he calls on your birthday
to ask if he can stop making
child support payments.
You grow up without a fathers love
and a mother that works three jobs
just to support her three children
and you being oldest are left to
care for the younger two.
You never get to live your childhood
abused by your mother the way she
was abused by one of her three husbands
and being a little girl, you dream of your own family one day
with a good husband and lots of kids.
But after raising your little sisters
and missing that father's love
you find that your dream is just
to settle down with only one child
so he doesn't grow up the way you did.
it's a vicious cycle.
You grow up with such low self esteem
because you were constantly
being put down by one's you loved and trusted
you begin to believe that you are ugly
and no man in the world would ever want to be with you
you are worthless and good for nothing but a quick screw.
Then you meet a boy who thinks
that you hung the moon
he would do anything and everything for you
and you end up married to him
only to find that though he is not
physically abusive, he is mentally,
verbally and emotionally abusive to you and your son.
He seems to not give a shit
about your son and is always
on his back about something
your child can never do anything good enough
it's a vicious cycle.
The day comes when you
kick him out of your house
because you can't take anymore
and you feel relief that you can go home
and not have someone jump your ass
as soon as you walk in the damn door.
It's funny how the world works....
For it is a vicious cycle
Please tell me what you think
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Wow! pain and emotion practically drip from your words, very descriptive. I like how there seems to be a glimmer of hope at the end, that there is freedom from the cycle...
-Garrett
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Bravo!!! Most excellent!
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you have shown such emotion here shell, a brilliant write from a brilliant poet
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To every storm
there is a distant thunder as it approaches, before the lightening strikes and the hard winds come....this poem is like distant thunder as the words roll from your tongue.
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This is an amazingly heart-wrenching poem, i have said it many times now, but it is an extremely sad injustice of the world that good people are subject to such awful stuff.
Know that I am sending you all the happy wishes I can, all the time
Keep writing, and know also that things will get better for someone as great as you
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sweetheart..
my heart's so heavy right now for your pain, i wish you and your son never had to deal with the pain you've gone thru..and pray for you to one day see happier days ,all the way until the end of your days.
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thank you swan, I appreciate your comment and well wishes. We are going to be just fine. Thanks for the comment
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I am so sorry that you were put through all this misery at such a young age,this poem is so heart rendering,
well written ,sad and I only hope that things will now get better. carl xxx
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thank you baby for your comment. Things will get better now. What I have gone through has made me who I am today and I wouldn't change a thing.
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This is fantastically amazing.
Wow...
I am speechless.
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. I appreciate it
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Very intense.
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Thank you. It was meant to be. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment. I appreciate it
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