Please Don't

I can't remember when my drain didn't run red,
I can't remember when someone actually talked to me first.
I can't remember when I actually cared again anymore,
And that's not even really the worst.

I have it all planned out, every last detail.
[Please don't leave me alone tonight.]
I'm all prepared to leave it all behind without a second glance.
[Please don't let me give up this  fight.]

The panic attacks are finally back again;
Since I last had them, it's been a while.
The tears just won't stop coming down now,
It's hard to keep up such a fake smile.

I have it all planned out, every last detail.
[Please don't leave me alone tonight.]
I'm all prepared to leave it all behind without a second glance.
[Please don't let me give up this  fight.]

And when I manage to follow through with it,
I know you won't be there to stop me.
I'll have no regrets, it'll be the only time I won't doubt myself,
And maybe I'll go down with a smile, looking so happy.

I have it all planned out, every last detail.
[Please don't leave me alone tonight.]
I'm all prepared to leave it all behind without a second glance.
[Please don't let me give up this  fight.]

I've been trying so hard to cry out for help,
But my voiceless screams are merely falling on deaf ears.
Maybe I'm just lying to myself, when I say I've left nothing good behind,
But I believe it -it brings me to tears.

I have it all planned out, every last detail.
[Please don't leave me alone tonight.]
I'm all prepared to leave it all behind without a second glance.
[Please don't let me give up this  fight.]

I won't waste your time with my goodbyes,
I'll just salute the world and take my bow, it's my final show.
I've lost sight of the good in life by now,
So, please...just let me finally let go.

I have it all planned out, every last detail.
[Please don't leave me alone tonight.]
I'm all prepared to leave it all behind without a second glance.
[Please don't let me give up this  fight.]

Please don't....