I am a feather
floating through a city
With strange windows
and stranger winds
Yet I stay
and I pray
and I feel
without moving
I hear
I heard
"The tides are changing"
"The wind is blowing"
But when?
and where?
and where to?
I was told
by an old man
whom I was
mystified by
once
that I would be,
as he said,
"Significant to the history of the world."
But here I lay
and stand
and breathe---
exist;
and I do nothing.
I am a feather floating,
and
I want to make an impact.
Author notes
Written on Nov. 12th, 2008...
In early August of this year, I was told by a shaman/psychic (amongst other things) that I would be "significant to the history of the world." (That is a direct quote, I will never forget those words, even if I don't necessarily believe in that kind of voodoo.) I'm not necessarily pondering the question: "when will that prophecy come true?" Rather, I want desperately to do something that I can feel proud of, to experience and be a part of something which I can look at and say: "there is true knowledge and raw experience combined." Yet when I make projections into the future for myself, I see nothing. The void that I see is probably a reflection of the void which is currently engulfing me. I immerse myself in art (not even a fraction of what I should, I concede,) but ultimately I am not DOING anything. I think it was Kant that said: "Experience without theory is blind, but theory without experience is mere intellectual play." But I may be paraphrasing, here.
I don't want to play any longer. I want to see, perceive, and experience. (Experience here, is used as a verb.) That is why lately I have been contemplating just moving to Switzerland. It is said to be the least corrupt country there is currently, and one of the things I am fed up with right now concerning American life is the two party "system" or oligarchy we call politics. Mostly, though, it is American culture which I am sick of. The flash flood of advertisements and brainwashing, and the people who blindly accept this ignorance and "love their servitude" as Huxley would say. Someone once tried to argue with me that people are the same everywhere and that because the globe is constantly and consistently industrializing and developing, it would be impossible for me to completely escape that which I despise. Yes, I agree; but only if it is both tacitly and explicitly understood that the salient word there is "completely" (ostensibly there are always exceptions to every so-called "rule", after all).
But I have to start somewhere, and Switzerland seems like a beautiful place to begin. It would be organized chaos, thrusting myself into a world of utter confusion and things which I know naught about and it would force me to do SOMETHING, at least. I would probably meet some great people. Basically, I kind of want to be a hippie. And everyone on the planet is six degrees away from someone famous, or at least someone with a platform, right? So all I have to do is meet the right people. Bu that's not my goal. Up until this point in my life, as I've said, I've had the theorizing half of the ying-yang, and now it is time for me to complete that full circle with the "yang" aspect and actually live instead of merely existing.
Please tell me what you think
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this is definitely interesting and I am intrigued by your author notes. I love astrology and am sort of curious about your chart. anyways I egress, but you remind me of me, ha. If you are a leo then I say it is the curse of our birth signs. I myself recently made a drastic change and moved from Florida clear across to CA. and I must say the things I have experienced out here are amazing. I don't regret anything and too everyone in Fl that knew me thought I was insane for such a sudden change.
Anyways, now I love it out here and your desire at wanting to be a hippie reminds me of San Francisco (as I am less than 45 mins away) and the area of CA that I live
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hey, thanks for the comment. i really don't know much about astrology myself, but i do know that i am an ares. (is there an "i" in there?). my older brother is a leo though. He recently moved from Maine (from this house, actually, in which I've lived for 19 years) to Oregon, clear across the country. I'm thinking of visiting him when I graduate college, which should be within the next year. I could also make some stops in Florida, Iowa, and Minnesota, depending on how things work out.
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astrology shouldn't be confused with horoscopes and it is a very extensive and interesting topic if you ever have the time to look into it.
that's spiff, what are you studying if I may be nosey?
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yeah, like i said i (clearly) don't know that much about astrology; i'm currently studying liberal studies shit. basically, i have no idea what i want to do and i'm getting my humanities out of way.
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