Frustrated part 6

I saw Rs court date the otehr day. I couldnt believe what i heard, he pleaded guilty which means he doesnt have to go to trial. He gets life with no parol. I started to cry because you pleaded not guilty which means more than likely youll get the death penalt. I feel bad and i dont understand all this is my feelings are a mess. I dont know what to feel. I feel bad for you but you did something so wrong. I love you and i hope everythings good and works out. Everything happens for a reason, I MISS YOU