I'm but a simple creature at heart
bound with the complexities of my mind.
Always smashing against the walls,
fists up and head spinning, running around in circles trying to fight it off.
And these days at the first hint of a downer, the mind swirls and let my maniacal nature run amuk!
But deep down, deep deep down
the demons come out to play.
They show me the past in vivid technocolor euphoria
then before I can react, they burn it to the ground...
...and out of the ashes, walks a tired soul, clutching my head
and stumbling out wearily, charred photographs still in hand.
I wish I could tell you that I woke up and got better instantly,
but it's never going to be the case.
I try and try and as days go by,
yet another one of my life's loves hath gone to waste.
But I press on and on because I feel I have to.
That I owe it to the world to try and change things so that the people of the future
never end up like me,
For perhaps without the hate and beating down, these maniacal feelings would have
stayed locked up in the depths of my mind.
It could have been stopped, somehow, and then maybe I would be able to go on through life...
...without having to carry this cross.
Author notes
i think it's one of the best i've spit out in awhile (since the spider one) so read, think, enjoy. peace be with you, dearly beloveds.
mawrlz
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wow this is amazing. you have such a distinct style jessie! you made my mom cry once...lol.
anyways, i love the image in the third strophe, and the last two lines. woot!
-Dani
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thank you <3
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i absolutely love this. there is such pure self emotion in this. i do sit,a nd i ponder, and i know that whatevr comes at you, you will pass through it. they always build the little ones the strongest XD
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thank you ^^ and yes, even though what's been happening in my life hurts i think i will make it through.
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