Giving Up

If I don't say this now
I won't ever get this out
My heart has started to slowly break
There's only so much more I can't take
Here I am drowning in my own crimson tears
Lost admist these realized fears
Please don't try to save me anymore
There you go, just walk out and towards the door
Don't keep feeding me these lies
I know all you wanted was to let me die
Nothing I said ever seemed to matter to you
No matter what I managed to do
You seemed to use my pain as a cue
To turn and run when I really needed you
All I needed was to hear the truth
But I believed the lies I heard from you
Say you love me baby
Say you are in love and you want only to be with me
Call me cute and say I deserve the world
Even if I am a bit odd I will always be your girl
Love doesn't turn when the world does
And you proved yourself wrong
Everyone knows I am in this over my head
Just like the blankets on my bed
As I scream into a mascara streaked pillow so loud
Trying to just drown your voice out
I have realized you never cared
That you weren't there
And here I am telling you the truth
The only thing I asked from you
Don't feed me lines about us and the future and love
I'm done with the lies, I'm giving up