christmass mess.

Once again that time of year,
is rolling in,
so slow and so very cold,
heart aches after each other,
year after year,
is this getting harder for me?
Dizzy feelings the minute the door opened,
scared and feeling lonly,
no one to grab onto,
looking up scared to know it's there,
i see whats left of you,
shocked to see it's still there,
and so much of it,
i fall to the floor to only be reminded,
thats where you layed so cold,
not so long ago.