My Last Testament To WEP (inspired by a song from Avenue Q)

So long I've wasted
with thoughts and worries about you
when so much of this  is beyond my control
how foolish I have been


As the song from Avenue Q states
"There's a fine fine line
between a lover and a friend
there's a fine fine line between reality and pretend"
That's what this all has been  a fantasy
because I grew infatuted with you
even though I knew you were gay
and love between us could never be fathomable
or at least not a love beyond friendship


though  it would  be kind of nice to know
if you still remember all the fun times we had
at the Barn Playhouse together
because I fear you've forogotten those as well as me.

I NEED to say goodbye
to these negative thoughts I've been
feeling
they've kept me seething and reeling
I can't let them overtake me anymore

"For my own sanity  I'm gonna close the door
and walk away."

I'll never forget the Barn
as I'm sure you haven't either
but  in order to be happy
I need to do what you did at the end
of the summer  LAST SUMMER
MOVE ON!

So Will
this is my final testament to you
I hope you'll always have a special place
in your heart for me, your Sweet Janine
and that's we'll be friends again someday
During last summer your friendship
meant a lot to me
I wonder if you you realize how  much
that meant