Venom is seeping out
My eyes are burning
My heart is pounding
I am so angry
Know that when the dagger hits the right spot
When there is too much blood
It's not some happy accident
Ending you is exactly what I wanted
I feel insanity creeping up on me
Right and wrong no longer exist
All that matters is your betrayal
The words you said, the lies you told
Know that when my hands are tight around your neck
When you can't breathe
It's not some happy accident
Ending you is exactly what I wanted
You act so perfect, so mistreated
Let me burst your bubble
Your just like every broken down bitch in the world
Reality check, sweetie, life ain't easy
Know that when poison runs down your throat
When your cold heart stops beating
It's not some happy accident
Ending you is exactly what I wanted
You scream about my cruel soul
But I tell you darling
I wasn't always like this
You put this gun in my hand
Know that when the bullet hits between your eyes
It's not some happy accident
Ending you is exactly what I wanted
And face it,
You asked for it.
Author notes
So I got into this hudge fight with my ex-best friend. We were so close-did everything together- even the whol finish eachother's sentances bit. Then one day she decided to just stop talking to me. She never answered my text, avoided being in situations that involved having to talk to me. At first I capped her isolation off to her being stressed out because it was normal for her to avoid hanging out with anyone when she was stressed about something. However, it was not long until I realized that I was the only person she was truely avoiding.I asked some of our mutual friends ( which is pratically all of our friends because we had always been with eachother) what was going on with her. They all told me that whenever they asked she changed the subject or just said things weren't the same.
I got fed up with trying to make things nice, with trying to ignore the fact that she was icing me out for no reason, trying to shake off all of her rude comments, and even dirty looks( which I know were not all in my head because people around me noticed it to). I decided to confront her, ask her what the heck her problem was. At first I tried to speak civily to her but when her only response was " I don't have to explain myself to you." I quickly got....well pissed. I started yelling, telling her how crappy she made me feel. I called her out on alot of crap, ( and people who know her would nderstand this) pushed her off her self-proclaimed pedistool, and basically told her she was a crap-shot of a friend and that I could never trust her. To everything I said she either rolled her eyes, looked down on the floor, or stated "I don't have to explain myself to you.", I sooooo wanted to smack her, cuss her out, beat the hell out of her, but instead I walked away and came home and wrote "Happy Accident". Writting this really helped me vent out most of my anger and frustration, and even though whenever I see her all I want is to slap her or make her feel as shitty as she had made me feel, I am a much happier person and now I am glad to be rid of her her judgemental attitude and self-rightious crap.
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So I don't comment on content before I hand out awards, but I did want to say I have had something similar happen to me (If you look back I think its two years in my poetry you might see it, may/june a few years back) so if you ever need someone to vent to I understand!
Best of luck -
Let your anger out is what I say...and you did it perfectly..
Loved the repetition....
XXJeannette
btw: don't stay angry to long my friend, it's not worth it most of the time to let your life ruin by anyone...
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I can relate to that all to well right now.
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