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the price of anger

Can’t get her out of my head,
now that she is out of my life.
A close find I hurt cause
my pride was not right.
Hollowed-tipped words,
bull eye on every mark.
I regret nothing that was said,
but anger got the best in the end. 
Now here I am, with out my special friend. 

Author notes

about three or so days ago, i lost a a dear friend, thou we didn't know each other very long, she help me out when i need it, but something happened that made me feel betrayed like i was being used, when i met her she had some demons she didn't let go off, and when one resurfaced, to make a long story short, i made me think she was using me all along, and that i was really nothing to her but just something like tissue, blow your nose then throw away. I meant some things that i said, but not the way they came out. I was anger and hurt, she made me feel like i was just a joke and i have faced that kind of betrayal before.

I didn't even listen to her side of things, and now she has moved on as is her way. For me honestly i can't there are still things unsettled so i can't let it go, at this moment at least, with time it will be out of my mind, but it hard when i met her here on AP and she is here everyday like me. I can't ignore someone that is not my way. but still i just wish this urge would just go away. i don't wanna it, i don't need it, she has moved on but i just can't. I am not that kind of person, it sucks really. So i guess poems like this will keep popping out of me for a while until i can just let it all go. I just need time. Then there is also the say that if you love something let it go, if it comes back it was meant to be, if not, well. i don't know what is going to happen but no matter how many times i try to say goodbye i can't. why do women have this power over men.
Keep it flowing

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  • greeny
    November 18, 2008
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    i can relate..
    it's ok to lost someone who doesnt worth our while...
    yeah, keep it flowing..


  • Swan song gold member
    November 17, 2008

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    This kind of reminds me of an Etheridge Knight poem called feeling fed up
    if you get a chance to study him do it
    and Sandburg also because Chicago is poetry!


  • redhanded
    November 11, 2008

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    aw this is a great write. full of emotion. and I am really sorry for ur loss. i hope everything gets a lil better for ya bud!
    keep up the good work!
    andi
    (redhanded)


  • chilali
    November 11, 2008

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    A very deep and emotional write. I really do hope everything works out.


  • Deathless1
    November 10, 2008

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    i hope you two can work it out some how it seems that is what you want.
    wishing the best.
    clari


  • Tears of Roses
    November 10, 2008

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    sweetie it works both ways men have that effect on women also. I know.
    Hugs and Roses to you

    Teresa

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