So Many, Too Many

There are so many times I could've said something
But I stayed quiet
So many chances to say hello
But I hid behind my mask
I wanted something
But I was too scared to go for it
I wanted you
But I was scared of making myself look stupid

Now I think it's too late
You've stopped looking back at me
Stopped waiting for something that wasn't even going to happen
You've moved on, but I still want you
If only I had've spoken up
There are so many words I left unspoken

So many

Too many

The past is hurting me and telling me it's all my fault
But what did I do wrong, but do nothing at all?
I was so close yet so far
I had every chance and I passed them all up

Why?

Because I was scared of making a bad impression
I was scared of what you thought of me
Now I realise it was a waste of time to wait
I should've done something when I had the chance
Because another chance may not come along
I can always hope it does but my heart is heavy
And filled with doubt
I still look, longingly at you
When once you would return my gaze

You don't even notice me now