He Was Everything, But Me

I struggled to return from bitter waste
And this the last time I would ever try
For I have seen too many forms of grace
Defiled by what my precious God implies

The next time that my belief was misplaced
Again the last time I would ever try
I witnessed what I knew was not the case
A violent truth that even God denied

The third and last time I would ever try
To find my way back to what I had known
I noticed I could no longer rely
On all the prmoises that God had grown

Since I failed on every first attempt
I tried a fourth time, this would be my last
And if I still can't disregard contempt
It's true that all my faith has been surpassed

I now expect to die one day alone
My favourite god, the God that I forgot
Still sat in heaven high up on his throne
I had to give my trust one final shot

I am now a stranger to myself
And there is no more strength inside of me
I gave it all to God and his ill stealth
For that last time, I lost my dignity