Please touch me

I am just so deperate to feel something
Other than this dark painful spasm
That clinches my heart
And leaves me feeling lost

I look to those around me
The ones I think love me
But I guess it takes more
Than a silent stare
That pierces only me inside

I reach out with invisible hands
And scream and cry and rage
Anger takes over everything
Then washes away in dispare
Like waves that continue on forever

I just don't know how to break this cycle
Free myself from this neverending hurt
I try desperately to claw my way out
So tired of being alone