Emptiness consumes the deepest depths
leaving nothing behind but hollowness
and dreams of a quick and sudden death
…just breathe...
Rapid breathing pounds heart to chest
screams and pleas break through the mist
…just breathe…
Don’t make me breath anymore
I’m sick of the pain and sick of the fear
the blades of pain ripping me apart
there is a reason for my panicking heart
…just breathe…
Numbing arms and numbing legs
please tell me I’m finally going to escape
be free of this emotional pain
this hollowness that’s all consuming
leaving me so empty that I can’t even care
…just breathe…
Sharp pains in my arms and hands
words of reassurance but they don’t really care
as they put something in or take something out
all I can think about is my rapidly beating heart
…just breathe…
Please let it stop and then I’ll be free
so free and no one will feel guilty
for it’d be natural causes that took my life
and freedom would finally be mine
but apparently life cruel and it’s not my time
…just breathe…
Oxygen pumping into my lungs
distant voices fluttering in
they’ve left me alone now that I’m alright
forgetting the teenager who could have died
…just breathe…
Who should have died
but cruelly lived for another
emotionless day in a mental hell
forgotten by everyone except myself
Author notes
I wrote this only four days after getting out of the hospital. I ended up in the ER via ambulance after my heart began to race so badly that I couldn't breath. As I lay there with everyone telling me to breathe I felt so hollow and empty that I wanted my heart to just stop so that I'd die but it didn't and now I'm out of the hospital, as empty as ever.
I hope this is alright for the contest (sadness and despair-Mak180) its what came out when I started writing.
A contest entry
- Sadness and Despair by PoetryStar2.
400 points, ended November 13, 2008, 11 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Does this seem emotional or empty?
Comments
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don't despair little gypsy.....
you worry to much...everything will be alright lass.
When your feeling this way remember every one panics and gets sad...
Try to show your golden smile....
life is a carnival....it's all a joke.......
there are those who love you deeply...
how sad they would be without you...
good piece of work..
lots of emotions...
Peace,
Lowell poe
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The just breath repetitions seems like a good calming device until the ending, when we learn it didn't really help.
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good job and good luck in the contest
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