Living Ghost

Your smile is worth more to me than anything in the world,
but-
I can no longer make you smile.

Your warmth is better than steaming hot chocolate after a snowy day,
but-
I can no longer help you feel warm.

Our conversations, about the smallest things, would always last for hours,
but-
I am no longer worth your time.

Knowing, just knowing, that there is noone else that could ever replace you
but-
You have chosen another route.

Am I glad to know that you still don't want to be with any one else? Yes,
but-
I'd rather endure the pain of seeing you with another girl than the heartbreak of watching you die.

You think you've frozen the bullets in mid-air,
but-
You are too high, too blind
to see that they are slowly moving closer and closer.

"Prepare Yourselves" the doctors always say
right before the crash.
Save yourself, please. Please.
is my only final request.

Have you ever watched the person you care most about in the world
lose their life to addiction?  Have you tried everything, everything you
could think of to get through to them, but just added to the distance?
Have you ever look away and pretended everything was okay, just
to be with him for one peaceful day?  Have you ever felt so much pain
caused by the only one you turn to for comfort?

I love you more than the sunrise, the daylight, or the moon,
but today, I am accepting that
I cannot save you, you must help yourself.
But the day, the moment, that you are ready to fight
I will drop everything-
and forever be by your side.