Hands hitting all around
I slip on blood fall to the ground
Your hands they fly and my hands fly out
I catch myself, can't scream can't shout
My mouth stays closed no sounds escape
I keep my mouth from falling agape
I want to run I want to hide
Your foot kicks straight into my side
Its been six months and still I sit
In this room and think of it
I left you, it was for the best
I had to get this off of my chest
I tried to run but couldn't get out
So I finally told someone about
The pain you caused, our baby you killed
The bruises I hid, I was quite skilled
My makeup washed off and it was all revealed
And then away the layers he peeled
he hugged me close and told me to leave
I wish now he could see
Its been one year I'm almost healed
The scars you left I have resealed
I have a new love and a new life
One without beatings, one without strife
He wouldn't hit me, not if I hit him
I think of him and tears dont brim
I'm smiling now, though I miss what we could have had
I should have a baby, that wouldn't have been bad
After a year of crying and 2 years of shame
I can finally say I have a name
A name that is mine, a name without bruises
I don't have to worry about men with short fuses
I'm stronger now, and won't ever again
put up with abuse, not for a minute
Author notes
ok, not my best but i tried
I was abused by my ex for well over a year and tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of ...him killing our baby while I was pregnant. I am better now and I wish all abuse victims could see it does get better after a little while, just give yourself time to heal..it isn't instant and it hurts but when the pain starts to fade...
you are ok
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OUch, this was very vivid which made it all the more painful to read -
You completely brought this to life, which, considering you lived through it, isn't surprising - and I can't even begin to imagine the multitude of tears, and pains, and emotions that you went through -
What to say, you must be very strong, and indeed wise - you are so right when you say that time will heal, not for ages, perhaps, but the pain does begin to fade ...
Congratulations, for being able to write about this, and share it with us - for being strong enough to come out the other side! -
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thank you so much
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A name that is mine, a name without bruises
I don't have to worry about men with short fuses
I'm stronger now, and won't ever again
put up with abuse, not for a minute
....sums up beautifully, the pathos, the smarting memories, the healing and the metamorphosis brought by time. One should not get stuck up at any point in life... be it good or bad. Must move on.
Congrats for winning the contest.
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Really powerful poem. I'm glad you won.
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WOW! This hit real hard for me. I am in a room full of people and I had to work to keep the tears from spilling over. This had to be the saddest poem I have read in a long time. I am truly truly sorry for the pain you had to endure; but I am happy that you found the strength to run and never go back. You are truly a survivor and you give hope to other young woman who are abused and may feel that they have no way out. You live to tell your story, and though...I choke back just trying to say this... though your baby is not here, keep that beautiful baby in your heart forever, and remember when you are ready, you will carry another miracle into this new world of beauty and love that you have struggled so hard to find. He was an insecure, sadly ignorant, and probably misguided individual; and you rose above that. You did a beautifully powerful job at weaving this tragic past into words that will trail my heart and mind long after today.
Amy
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I truly can connect with you on this very hurtful subject.You truly are an incredible writer.Thank you for sharing this piece.I am happy that you were able to get out of that situation and tht you are feeling better.
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This poem is really good.
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Beautiful. Sometimes frilly poetry isn't always the best way to say something, and you proved that well here. Great job
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thank you so much for the gold! i'm so happy you liked my poems
thank you again!!!
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