Been To Long

The night is closing in around me
There's so much darkness and I just can't see
I have been trying for way to long
Now the motivation has dissappeared I cannot go on

I keep pretending I don't know what it means
When I start to drown in my memories
I just push away the truth and tape my eyes shut
Telling myself I can only take so much

Down on my knees and unable to pray
Wondering how the hell I'll live through today
My heart doesn't beat, it just sits taking up space
And nothing hurts me more than the looks on their face

When the world turns its back I cannot turn mine
Cause I am scared of looking to the past and what I may find
Realizing I cannot go on like this
Somehow I must end all this

Kiss this razor and let it kiss my wrists
My only way to handle any of this
My way of dealing with the pain, forgetting everything
And remembering nothing

I scream and I fight and noone ever notices my struggles
Standing with a livewire in a rain puddle
Trying to shock my life away
There's truly nothing anyone can say

My mind is made up and there is no turning back
Got to move on with the plan and I have decided that
Somethings left just aren't worth fighting for
Flick the blade and fall to the floor