I want to know
how people can spend their lives
putting others down, never knowing,
and yet be completely happy themselves.
And I want to know more..
I want to know why I am always
so confused with my emotions.
I want to know why everything is suddenly OK
when I'm with you.
I want lots of things,
But I never get them.
I want world Peace.
I want the world to explode.
I want to be happy.
I want to be isolated.
I want you to love me.
I want you to stay away.
I want you to never change.
I want you to stop being so perfect.
I want to stop hurting myself.
I want to inflict as much pain as possible.
You know what I really want?
To stop contradicting myself.
You know what I really want?
To sort out these thoughts,
that are constantly whirling around in my head.
All I really want.
I want to understand.




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