Patrick

Lost in thoughts
of a lover
so sweet,
He is the ripened fruit
from the blossomed tree

So soft,
He is the whisper
that touches
all of me.

So dark,
He is the missing piece
to the puzzle
that is my heart.

So painfully beautiful,
His presence hurts my eyes,
makes my body ache,
burns everything inside.

Awakens such desire...
I never knew I could be happy...
I wonder if I can be happy...
I wish for him to take me there...
To the place I've never known...
I only wish.

(dedicated to Patrick Rendich)

Author notes

I dated Patrick Rendich from mid August 2008 until late November 2008. I had to break up with him because he became abusive and I need to break the cycle of being in unhealthy relationships. A relationship should be a safe place. While dating Patrick, I lived in fear of his physical abuse. Thank God I found the stregnth to let go, even though I believed I loved him-in reality it was more of a sick addiction if anything.