Failed

I thought,
things would have changed.
I thought,
I would have changed.

Getting close,
only brought fear.
Getting close,
only brought hate.
Getting close,
only brought hurt.

I'm done,
being afraid.
I'm done,
being hated.
I'm done,
being hurt.

Pain,
shows beneath the surface.
Pain,
shows beneath it all.
Pain,
shows above all the rest.

My eyes,
filled with guilt.
My eyes,
filled terror.

My heart,
filled regret.
My heart,
filled empty.

My body,
is bruised.
My body,
is weak.

My mind,
stays confused.
My mind,
stays trapped.

You are now afraid,
of what I am.
You are now afraid,
of being alone.

Shadows pass,
along the forest outline.
Shadows pass,
along the edge of escape.

Through the day,
we're only friends.
Through the day,
we're only strangers.

Through the night,
we're only benefits.
Through the night,
we're only hurting.

Being close,
got me nothing.
Being close,
killed us both.

Distance,
is what we need.
Distance,
is what you want.
Distance,
is what I desire.

How can I stay,
and pretend?
How can I stay,
and fake?

You want the truth,
plain and simple.
You want the truth,
decoded from all.

Here's the truth,
baby.
Here's the truth,
darling.

Truth is,
I love you.

Pain equals,
love.
Pain equals,
weakness.

I've shown my,
weakness.
I've shown no,
control.

I have,
failed.
I haven't,
passed.

Here's a,
shocker.
I want to,
fail.

Experimenting,
beneath the lies.
Experimenting,
beneath the hurt.

They were right,
all along.
They were right,
from the beginning.

Being close,
got me nothing.
Being close,
got you hurt.

I will fail,
and I will pass.
Which will come,
first?

Stay with me,
one more night.
Stay with me,
one more chance.

I'll give you a reason,
to give me an F.
I'll give you a reason,
to give me an A.

Find,
friends.
Fuck,
forgetting.

You know,
what that means.
Four,
F's.

Only I can play this thing,
called a game.
Only I can play this thing,
called love.
Only I can play this thing,
called lust.

One thing I need,
is a hard choice.

Either,
take me.
Or,
leave me.

Fuck,
sacredness.
Fuck,
love.

I'm going to hell,
I don't care.
When the night falls,
I only care.

As I whisper words,
words of desire.
Just let me,
fail.