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this room is silent as death and I WANT YOU TO TOUCH ME, I WANT YOU, I'VE BEEN MISSING YOU EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY SINCE YOU TOLD ME YOU'D RETURN. this is what was not going to happen, this is what i was not going to do. i did not want you. i did not need you or human contact or orgasm. thats why i never called until i NEED NEED NEEDED my fix of intimacy and social interaction.

it took years for me to quiet the tempest within me, to become content with being high and making art and being alone. i was perfect, i was not happy but i was not in PAIN. how dare you come here and kiss me and make me want you. i am a catastrophe, i am i child of flame. i think of your teeth and i think of your hands and the way you use them and i lose my mind, how dare you do this to me, how dare you, you cannot give me an addiction and then leave me here to writhe and bleed into the rags tied onto my arms. DO NOT ASK ME ABOUT MY SCARS, I AM NORMAL, I ONLY WANT TO KISS I DO NOT WANT TO LOVE YOU FOREVER I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE WITHIN YOUR BONES I ONLY BITE BECAUSE I WANT TO EXPLODE BECAUSE I HATE TO FEEL.

i warned you, oh baby i warned you.