My Head

I remember when
I used to trip and fall
You'd be there to
help me with a band aid
and a cuddle
"it'll be ok" you'd whisper
I was young, i didnt know you'd leave.

I remember when
we'd hold hands
to walk through town
or along the beach
it never mattered
sunrise, sunset, midnight,
you'd want to be by my side
I was in love, I didnt know you'd leave.

I remember when
we'd hang at school together
You'd acknowledge my existence
We're still at school together
you barely send a smile my way
just a nod
every now and again
We were friends, I didnt know you'd leave.

My Father, My Boyfriend, My Friend
I remember when
they were all part of my life
i never knew where
we'd be in five years
or even five months
But they all left
one by one
I remember when
I knew who i could run to
Now i run to others,
those three are not on my list
of trustees
those who care.

I remember meeting
those i trust now
i felt safe to talk
safe to trip and fall
before then
they are now offering the band aids
the cuddles
and the encouraging words
But i can help but remember
when it was the others that did that.