Vulnerable and out of whack
Nostalgic and melancholy
I thought you’d come back
Shaking and trembling
The tears stream down my cheeks as the knife jabs deeper into my flesh
I can’t breathe…
I swear to never love again
The sharp ecstatic kisses
The rough tender touches
The smooth feel of skin beneath my lips…
Feeling his mouth upon my neck
The sighs fill the silence in the night…
I thought this would help me feel whole once more…
To not feel so…
Empty…
But I was wrong…
They’re all the same
They use me and stroke me
Where is he?
My one?
I refuse to let my heart belong to anyone ever again
Never again will I say I love you
Never again will I open my heart
Cause whenever I do
I only have to sew it up again;
The painful needles piercing my white tender skin…
Oh too treacherous of a task for my scarred fingers to do
Mine as well just be alone
So many of us are anyways
And some choose to be only because they know what it’s like to have your heart Be shredded
Stepped on
Mingled
Abandoned…
Left in the snow to die…
I swear to never love again
At least I don’t want to…
Fear…
And yes I know how they say that fear shows great weakness
But the truth is…
I don’t care anymore…
I’m letting it envelope me… and control me…
I walk towards the darkness…
And there I will be till he finds me…
Please tell me what you think
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wow. powerful. i'm really sorry for your loss... you will heal one day. and i can't wait to see how you are when you do.
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thank you
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i really like this a lot, i can very much relate to the theme of not ever wanting to love again because you've been hurt and you don't ever want to feel pain again. i also like that this is a longer piece because it makes it more powerful. i just don't like the end because it takes the power away from you and gives it to someone else, otherwise a wonderful, empowering piece
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thank you for your comment...it meant a lot.
it ends that way because that's how i was feeling. being powerless was my point i wanted to get across at the end.
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