Sometimes,
I get this feeling inside,
that you’re not in this
with me,
That your words are empty,
and I don’t matter like I thought I did,
Sometimes,
I think you don’t love me,
like I love you, and that
when you talk to me you wish
you were somewhere else,
Sometimes,
I think I’m not good
enough for you,
that I’m just some toy
until you find someone better,
Sometimes,
I don’t know how to talk to you,
Sometimes I can’t,
You neglect me,
but I won’t give up,
because I love you too much,
Sometimes,
I get the feeling you don’t care,
You ignore me when your friends
come around,
I’m obviously less important than them,
Sometimes,
you tell me you love me,
and I don’t believe you,
I feel obsolete,
I thought I was making you feel good,
but you still cut yourself anyway,
Sometimes,
you just don’t see,
how much you’re hurting me,
You shouldn’t be making me cry,
but you still do,
Sometimes,
I miss you more than I can speak aloud,
God! I miss you, my baby,
but again I’ll keep my silence,
when I get the feeling
that you only love me
sometimes,
Author notes
She just doesn't see what I feel she doesn't look to even notice that I'm dying...what is the point of all this? She makes me feel so alone, we are only 50 mins away from each other (I'm in St Annes she's in Ireland) and it's too far, I love her so much I'd never let go but I can't talk to her in case she says I'm bored of you now or I've had enough, it always happens so I'll just be waiting....
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Comments
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Great write! Well-written. Sometimes I have some of those same feelings.
"Sometimes,
I think I’m not good
enough for you,
that I’m just some toy
until you find someone better," - I know I'm good enough for my family and friends, but I can never be good enough for everyone.
"My goal in life is to be as good of a person as my dog already thinks I am." ~ Canon Charles Maritn
Keep writting.

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"Sometimes,
I get this feeling inside,
that you’re not in this
with me"
Yes, Yes, Yes! I feel the exact same way! Thank you for this entry. -N -
Sometimes,
I think you don’t love me,
like I love you, and that
when you talk to me you wish
you were somewhere else,
I feel like this so often with so many people! And like I'm just filling in time with others...
Sometimes,
you tell me you love me,
and I don’t believe you,
I feel obsolete,
I thought I was making you feel good,
but you still cut yourself anyway,
I had a friend who made me feel like this so many times, lik it didn't matter how hard I tried, or how often, nothing worked, and she just told me to mind my own business. (When it was her who told me in the first place!!!)
Wow...!
It's amazing!! Is this to a lover, or a close friend?
Yeah, it's a great write, it vocalizes what I felt, and what I still sometimes (!) feel.
Nice work! (Bookmarked.)


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It's my lover, my girlfriend,
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very emotional with such heartfelt intentions. May your heart find peace inthis heart wrenching time.


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aww hun, you need to drop her like a bad habit, usually when you get these "ideas" that she is treating you like shit.. means she really is. Hun you can do better. I know there is a girl out there just waiting for you to become available. free yourself.
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My Partner lived 5300 miles away from me... So I know how that feeling is that your going through! But if it's meant to be, then the distance between each other can never hold True love apart. So I would confess your love to her without worrying about the heartache, She is probably thinking and feeling exactly the same way about it!!
All the best in love & life,
~T.S~


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Very much from the heart and very powerfully emotive. You can almost hear the tears on the keyboard. Wonderful write.


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Powerful
Such deep and intense feelings. The perils of love and all the suffering when it isn't what the heart needs is captured so well. Thank you for sharing.

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Actually this is a very well written poem. I feel your pain and confusion in this write. That you don't want to hear the words that you fear might be coming soon. I understand this very much because love is a truly scarey thing especially if you feel you don't deserve it or that you aren't truly being truthful too. A person that you love doesn't love you as much as you do them. Thanks for sharing this with me.

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There's always that fear, that they will get bored of you and have had enough. Its a very deep emotional write with despair thrown in. It takes courage to put what your feeling deep inside, and i think you have that in abundance.


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Thanks Nyte, glad you enjoyed the write xx
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Aww Georgie

I'm sorry it's being like that sweetie.
I know I feel like that sometimes... but hopefully you two will pull through.
Do you guys still get to see each other?
England and Ireland aren't to far away are they?

Keep smiling for me xx


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Thanks again for everything you've said x
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Thanks for the hugs
I'm just in so much pain
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This is a deep piece, Filled with emotion...longing, needing, yearning...a need to be validated...
Well written Georgia. I love the depth to this piece, the way you're not afraid to put your emotions out there.
Bravo
'D'

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Thanks D glad you liked this piece I'm sad to say it's all true
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Christ G I didn't know it was that bad i'd give you a thousand points if it woulld make a difference.
poor babe

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Yeah it's all true and I won't tell her I can't because I don't want her to leave me
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