I held you in my arms
Kissed your beautiful face
Told you I will love you forever
You couldn't look up at me
You couldn't kiss me back
You couldn't say "I love you too"
But I felt all those things from you
No incubator could fix my broken angel
What little light I had burned out
When I buried you, I buried me
It's not going to be ok, EVER
These things don't happen for a reason
It wasn't for the best
You're not in a better place (are you)
These ignorant bastards with their meaningless condolences
Screaming, silently
I honestly don't know how I survived
For years I didn't, I just managed
Your little brother saved my life
I only wish I could have saved yours
My beautiful
I love you forever
Author notes
Gold in yoursbyperil's contest allpoetry.com/Contest/538916
Written January 29th, 2004
In a list
A contest entry
- Anything!!! by C J Weatherholt.
350 points, ended November 9, 2004, 67 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
Comments
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beautiful
this is poetry at its best. something real and beautiful captures the reader's heart and this is more than just that.
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this is obviously
a deeply meaningful poem that you have penned and dearly sentimental, beautiful write,
Thank you for this entry and good luck in the contest
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this is so sad, congrats on the gold and I'm so sorry for your lost. my heart aches to think about this. All the best love!
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well im a cynical bitch,
and im crying, this was really just such a thing of beauty, you got so much of your raw emotion across in this
well youve sold me
i have to say when you made me a fave, i thought , ok ill take a look, i mean i do it all the time, a few clicks, no interest, back to what im doing, but ive just gone and listened to cashes version of hurt, afer downloading reznors,-i didnt know it was his- read a great ee cummings poem, then read a string of yours that just got better and better, and now Im adding this to my favourites,
very powerful
No incubator could fix my broken angel
What little light I had burned out
When I buried you, I buried me
It's not going to be ok, EVER
its not wallowing in poetic device, its straight down the line great writing, straight from your guts, straight from your life
so i guess i have to thank you for clicking my page
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This is so heartbraking as a mother it just makes me think how precious life is and with the darkness comes sunshine your children are your miracles hold them close much love
CJ.
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Brillient write! those last lines were remarkable!! "Your little brother saved my life
I only wish I could have saved yours"
It is very touching and raw!
Thank you for entering and good luck x -
Speechless
This poem leaves me after reading it. From the title I thought it was going to be about your beautiful lover, but NO it was but the poem wasn't beautiful at love. I loved that however, because you fouled us the readers. I could feel your pain in this poem also. I love how you said "No incubator could fix your broken heart", that was just great.
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wow nicely done i think people say sorry when they have nothing else to say and at the time of ones passing it's hard to think let alone function keep up the great writing it will help you work it out
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O my goodness. I don't know what to say... This is beautiful and so sad. I know what you mean about peoples condolences when my great grandmother died. I died to and all these people kept telling me how sorry they were and I wanted to scream at them. Did they kill her or something. Stop saying your sorry it wont make it better. I love this piece great job.
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This is very touching, very poignant, and it was a great write. "No one could fix my broken angel." It's so tough when this happens. It almost happened to my sister. It's extremely hard to go through the loss of someone so little who could never really respond to you. I'm very sorry. Thank you for entering it in my contest. You definitely hurt me in this piece, and I wish I could give out more prizes.
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This is so beautiful. It is so hard to read the poems that are about children who have passed. I don't know how to comfort someone who has gone through this, and, as you said in this, it's not easy to say the right thing.
Very touching, hun.
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Awe, this is really sad. You just dont know, I usually like poems that rhyme, but this one, holy cow, Im gonna cry
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I think I am about to cry.
This is so sad and touching
You are a brave soul for writing and posting this and I am glad tha tyou did...i only wish I had read it sooner
peace and love
susan
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Wow, that sent chills. It was very very very very good, but also kinda sad.
I'd say that this is the best part:
My beautiful
I love you forever
I love that part because you are being honest. You are being true and that is the best part about poems - when they are truely from the heart.
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Thank you very much, William, for your kind comments and applause. I truly appreciate it.
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Congratulations on your gold trophy...you definitely deserved it with this piece...I told ya it made me cry the first time so I'm not going to read it again...I've cried enough today! It's not TOO often that poetry makes me cry so...you know it's good.
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I've already put my 2 cents in on this one, so I'll just tell you Good luck in the contest
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i once had a friend who had a SIDS baby....very sorry....
justin -
This made me cry...thanks for reading about my little brother...I know it takes a lot to write about something as sad as this - even though I haven't been through it firsthand I can't quite imagine what I would do. Ok I gotta stop crying now lol
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This is a beautiful, sad write. I can feel your sorrow... and some of the things you said were so true...
When I buried you, I buried me
That was my favorite line. The entire idea of the poem was summarized on those few words... I can feel your pain and can relate to you all too well. I also loved the verse:
It's not going to be ok, EVER
These things don't happen for a reason
It wasn't for the best
You're not in a better place (are you)
These ignorant bastards with their meaningless condolences
Even when people mean well, they can sometimes only make things worse with their empty comfort... I've been in this situation many times before... it's a horrible thing, when no matter what words are expressed, they seem to mean nothing.
I really love this piece, and the title works very well for it. Definitely one of my favorite pieces ever on AP... Fantastic job. -
so sad and well writen, sorry that happend to you
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It was really a great poem, I'm with out words... great poem keep up the good work!!
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Great write! Lots of emotion shown in this piece. I liked it a lot, but am also sorry for the loss. Once again, great write & thanks for sharing.
Ash
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I'm speechless, I really don't know what to say. It's incredibly sad, but beautifully written. -K.e.L
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I lost someone and as I read this poem, I am glad that some said what I was feeling and still sometimes feel. It's hard to say " thanks for the condolences" when you have a stone in your throat from the tears.. very very well done.
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woah......*wipes tears from eyes*...absolutely beautiful....*pets* I hope you are better. Wonderfully written
Ashe
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Wow! written beautifully and kind of sad... I like sad things... but that makes me weird, and i am weird.... wait im making no sense.....
Keep it up!
w00t
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Brilliant
Thank you so much for sharing. My heart goes out to you. Tears came to my eyes as I read your poem. May God bless you and keep you always. -
Beautiful
This is absolutely amazing. I love it. It's so sad, and I'm sorry if this happened to you. It's very beautiful, and I only wish someone loved me that much. Great write! -
i think this one is my favorite as of now...you're so great!
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I love the total honesty within this piece. It drools emotions, and that makes it superb for the readers. I am sorry that the pain is so deep, and thrilled you're alive to share it. Wishing you all the best-
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i'm about to cry... the death of a child is one of the most heart-wrenching things ever, i think, although probably more so for us than for the child... i love how you call the child "my beautiful," it's so perfect, so innocent... screaming silently is such a perfect image for so many varieties of feelings, too... it's actually how i feel right now but i'm sure it's a very different kind of scream from yours... anyway, great write. i loved it.
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this is written beautifully! its amazing! it has a great flow and i just love it...great job!
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omg, I'm gonna cry... oh wow... that's so beautiful and so sad... a truly great piece...
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Wow..thats pretty deep, it was a very..heartfelt read so to speak you showed really raw emotion throughout the whole thing and that alone gains alot of my respect. Beautiful poem Thank you for taking the time to look at my work it is greatly appreciated
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This made my heart sink to my knees. This was one of the most heartwrenching writes that I've read in a very long time. Thank you for sharing it and I do hope that with time your pain heals a little. Also thank you for your kind words on my featured poem. *Sonya*
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WOW, this is truly incredibale. I can feel the pain that your sharing in this peice you have written for all to read. My heart goes out to you and hopes that the pain has lessend in the time your love has been away from you, it will never completly heal but it'll become more than bearable. It is a truly saddening write. Thank you so much for sharing your words and experiences with all of us here.
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applaud
My heart weeps after reading all of this. I see you aren't happy and feel like you'll never be... My soul aches knowing your pain, things will be okay if you let them...Thanks for sharing your write, so deep it made me cry...take care of yourself. always ~star -
Wow i really like how you cna see yourself learning this less and realizing everythign line by line..this was a great poem with soo much emotion that i really admired..i loved the way you did this....just perfect!!
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