I’d give up everything in this lonely world
If only to have another chance to live
To never have to be the girl
Who doesn’t have anything left to give
Except her hatred, except her pain
Except her heartache, except her shame
Of living alone in a world full of strangers
Never having a place I can call home
Dealing with all of this pain, all of my anger
That I seem to face alone
I may not have a guardian angel
To watch me as I sleep
And protect me from the demons
Who torture me in my dreams
But I'll keep trying
I'll keep moving on
But how can I keep putting foot before foot
If all my strength is gone?
I’m so sick and tired of living in a world full of heroes
Who will never come to rescue me
They’re surrounded, they’re blinded by cameras and obsessed fawners
Never seen, this little girl had to learn to be
Left alone, wishing to be loved by someone
Left alive, waiting to be heard by anyone
Oh Lord God, where is my angel
To guide me on my way?
Why I am cursed to this hell
When I still take the time to pray
Please help me, please try
And save me, a little girl
Slowly vanishing inside my soul
Lord, I'm dying inside my voiceless mind
Author notes
This poem is extremely personal to me, as it describes the near hopelessness that I had growing up. My childhood was pretty bad and my only real comfort was being able to pray to God, someone who would always love me.
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Comments
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hatred is spelt wrong is the first stanza . perfect! i love it
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such a powerful, emotional write
one of the best i have read this month by far
the last line was magic


