I care about you more than i should
More than i thought i ever would
We had always been "just friends"
Until a time not too long ago
A very wise person once told me "When the guy offers to pay, he cares"
So now i can't help but wonder
Was
It
A
Date
?
Did I want it to be?
Could I handle that?
Could we?
I
Just
Don't
Know
!
What I want out of life
What I want for myself
What I want from you
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I DON"T KNOW!
So stop asking
Why do you love me?
Why do you care?
You say that you need me
But for how long will you be there?
My head hurts
YOU make my head hurt
But isn't this what i wanted?
I wanted to be able to feel
Feel different
Feel strong
Feel passionate
Feel...alive
I just wanted to feel something
I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT
And every time I’m with you i lose more of my control
Your look doesn't help
"The look"
Your "I wanna kiss you now look"
And I hate that i want it too
But I know if I kiss you again...It'll all be over
Good bye self control
"Why do you fight it if you want it too"
I don't know
I never make sense
"It'll only be awkward if you make it awkward"
I can't help but wonder
Would it be awkward...
To love you?
To be with you?
Opps, too late, i guess i already know
It's not awkward
So much for that excuse
Why
Do
You
Love
Me
?
Why
Do
I
Love
You
?
Why did this happen like this?
Why?
Why?
WHY?
Not that it's a bad thing
Maybe it's meant to be
That's what everyone has always thought
"Are you dating him?"
They have all asked it...thought it...envisioned it
Our friends, our peers, our parents; they've all wondered, still do
Maybe it'll happen
Like they all thought
Maybe she's right, It was only a matter of time
Because apparently it's always been us
A love story waiting to be written
Maybe...Maybe not
Who knows, I’m stubborn
I
Care
About
You
!
SHIT!
When the hell did this happen?
When did "us" become a choice?
And how can i be sure that I'm making the right one?
I
Love
You
But i can't help but wonder
Why do you love me?
Why do you care?
You say that you need me
But for how long will you be there?
Will You Be There For Me?
I don't know
I don't know
Do I care?
I don't know
But I won't kiss you again until i do
Because I deserve more
Because you deserve more
Because we both deserve real love, not uncertinty
But maybe we do deserve each other
You love me...
I love you...
[Platonically?]
So why am i fighting it?
I
Just
Don't
Know.
Author notes
For the contest : You asked why i care about this, I don't know to be honest. All i know is that i do, and that thought kind of scares me. I guess it's obvious isn't it? Teenage heartache sucks!
Mylee
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Comments
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well done
the repition works well very well penned
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Very long but very well written. Keeps the reader gripped throughout. Good luck.
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Wow.
Thanks for fixing your AN too. But this is...wow. REally well written. I actually like the flow, the way you crafted it. Nicely done, creative, emotional, and very deep. Thank you for entering, this is great!
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Wow, this is really good. I loved it. Thanks for entering!
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Please re-read my contest rules and fix your AN. If not, it will be an auto DQ. I'll comment once it's fixed.
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Hy, hon, this isn't about what I think it's about, is it?
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Are all these quotes mine? I must wonder. *Ponders for a second* Teehee. I love you. you make my day interesting with your long, complex and horribly typed poem. But in either way, Alice has to tell you that she told you so!
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the first quote is yours. the secound two are his and the 4th is in general. but you are the she mentioned in the poem, because your Alice and you told me so.
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yep. Alice knows your life. and yet you don't listen. Alice is gonna have to ground Jacob by not letting him see Nessie.
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hahahahaha! hey what are you talking about. i did listen to you...for the most part.
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yea no. you didnt. dont lie
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ok so then what exactly would you like me to do, hmmm? cause actually i forgot what you said.
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you forgot what i said? what does that mean? you didnt listen to me. like always. im lost though. i will tell you that. what did you mean by that? you got me confused.
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honey .... please, please, please, please put this through the spellchecker.
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I laugh at your comment because it's so true with Erica.
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