Filling my dreams,
Filling 3/4 of my thoughts,
I miss you.
Why did you have to be sick?
Why did you have to leave when you did?
It was at a time when i needed you most.
Why couldn't the doctor's find that anurism,
until after it was to late?
I knew something was going to happen,
I needed to go see you,
Mom was going to wait
and i told her no.
I at least wanted to say goodbye,
And when I got there..
When I saw you...
I wanted to cry so bad but I had to stay strong.
But then,
You motioned me to come over,
You held me, held your baby girl,
and didn't want to let go.
You started crying
And so did I. I held on even tighter afraid you might leave me,
Then the doctor's came in,
We were asked to leave for a few minutes.
When I walked back in...
You were struggling to breathe,
They were trying to help you and then
There you were
On that hospital bed,
When I saw you take your last breath and never wake back up.
I remember screaming
"Grandpa, Grouchpa...NO!!!"
I ran over to you and wouldn't let go, I was bawling
Hoping my touch would bring you back,
My eyes,
The tears were streaming out like it was a hurricane...
They stung so bad of salt,
That they felt I was in the ocean waters for hours
They burned and I couldn't do anything about it except,
Wish you would wake up again.
That you wouldn't leave your
Baby girl, your Toady, your Lindsay
And her grandma
Who was so heart broken and lost,
That it made it so hard to say goodbye...
To our one and only loving, bestest
Grouchpa in the world...
That was always saying
"In or out... I love you baby girl.."
And I know its been 3 years,
But grandpa
Its still so hard to know you aren't here anymore.
Author notes
I wrote about my grandpa because he was the most amazing person ever and i still can't believe he is not here anymore 
i miss him so much and have been thinking about him non stop lately....
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Comments
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I really liked it thank you for entering
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that was so sad good luck in my contest
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Wow! What an emotionally charged poem you have penned here. Your Grandpa sounds like he was a wonderful man and a very positive role model for you. Always cherish that bond you had with him. He is still with you, and he will always be a huge part of your heart. Great job on this and thanks so much for entering. Blessings, Patty
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awww
thanks so much...and ya he meant the world to me! thank you
love lots
lindsay
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I adore how you made this so personal
with nicknames and quotations.This is the most painfully moving piece that I've read in a while.kudos
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thanks so much
...ya at first it was sort of hard to write or talk about ...but finally i was like ok i need to do this i need to get it out in way that i can remember somme of the good stuff and bad of him...and i guess it was this write...thanks so much again
-much love
lindsay
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I loved this whole poem. It brought back memories when my grandma and grandpa both passed away two weeks apart last agust.
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im starting to not like the month of august lol ...thats when my gpa past away to... im srry about ur losses to ..its so hard to deal these things tho sometimes..
much love
lindsay
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so sorry for your loss, omg i know that was tough, ive been there. u penned this so well, with so much emotion. personal scribes are always the best IMO. awesome job and again, im sorry for your sorrow. much love and respect
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aww thanks so much! and ya i appreciate it.. its nice to know sometimes that other people really do care what you go through
love
lindsay
thanks
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This is such a sweet poem. At least you were with your Grandpa before he passed. He knew you loved him before he died. I never got that chance with any of my deceased Grandparents. I enjoyed the read!!! Thank you for entering my contest
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This is soo sad and so beautiful, you did an AMAZING job. So sorry about your loss
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aww...thanks so much!! and ya im ok now,but thanks it means alot!
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Your welcome
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wow! This made me cry. Thank you for entering andI hope you feel better!
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thanks so much!! sorry you cried tho... and ya i do but idk you know he still lingers there in my mind.. but thanks!!!
-lindsay
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that was amzingly sad, but filled with so much emotion and love. Its hard to come to terms that someone or something isn't among the living anymore...its touching that after so much time you found it in you to write something like this for him. It takes heart to do this...I would know. My deepest sympathies for you ♥Rhi
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thank you and yes i mean it was kinda hard for me to write about but i just its something i will never forget...and needed to get out, this is the 1st time i wrote about him since a few years ago when he died but i never expressed things as well then as i can now...thanks alot love
-lindsay
xoxo
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Its Good
This is good, it has a lot of detail and emotion in it effectively telling a very sad and hard time for you. Great job, and sorry about losing your grandpa. -
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thank you!..and its ok..im a lil better..but u know sometimes u just wish they werent gone yet...but thanks so much
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This is really wonderful. I could not stop reading this beautiful piece. The whole thing is just pulsing with emotion. Really lovely write!
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thank you!..i guess it helped me write that lately i just been thinking about everything so...all my emotion just came out in one big "thing"lol ..thank you!
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aww this was sad but still really grate
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aww..thanks so much...but ya i had to get the emotion out somehow...especially lately...thank you
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forgot my clappies =]
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This is a good poem but really sad reminds
of when my grandmother died i wasnt allowed
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o..i srry.. but ya i remember ..this so well , he was sick for a lil while and started to get better but idk, i know my vball coach wasnt to happy with me for leaving the game to go see him but she felt so bad that night when i told her i was coming to the next game because he was gone ....but idk thanks so much..
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This was so sad, left a tear in my eye. Great job on the emotions though. God bless. Cheers!!
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thank you so much... i appreciate the comment...and u shldnt let that tear fall lol
-lindsay
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awwwww hun i love you...losing sumone is hard i kno...its terrible to go thru. this is so heartfelt and strong...your emotions are so real..this poem should be envied...its amazing...
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aww thanks so much sweetie! ..i love u to...but ya idk lately its been just so weird..i just cant stop thinkin about him..and it all started coming on hars when sum1 meantioned old spice lol.. i just miss him
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ur welcome. lol oh my.....
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