Under my skin.

Why do I torture myself?
I have the one I love, our life planned out so perfectly.
But always wanting the other, with no intentions on a "forever together".
Because I could never see myself without the one I'm with now.

They say you want what you cannot have.
But I CAN have the other, oh so easily.
I doubt it's love, I'm sure it's lust with the other.
Neither of them deserve to go through this.

I hate the way I feel inside.
Torn between two hearts.
Lost in a head spin.
Drowning in the depths of my own insanity.

Such a stupid girl.

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See, I have the man of my dreams, I couldn't ever see myself without him, and we're getting married.

But, there's another that I like--a lot. And I know that I shouldn't, but he is so much of the type I'm looking for also.

I visualize myself without my fiance, and I cringe. Because without him my life would surely be nothing, because I just CAN'T live without him.

I should be thankful that I have my soul-mate, I know I am truly lucky.

So why do I feel so strongly for another?